oh lord, I can already imagine all the personal essays picking up on that phrase and my first reaction is definitely geared towards hard rejection. Still getting to hear your thought process on art was real interesting and I can see the appeal of rubbing your hands all over it to claim it for yourself.

Your artistic process is a very different sort of experience from mine (more focus on catharsis and communication) but if you'll allow me to geek out a bit, I feel like the Florence + The Machine album, Dance Fever that came out today might also touch on some similar ideas. It came from a combo of the front runner reading up on "dancing plagues" from Medieval Europe and then the experience of COVID cutting off her ability to perform. There's a through-line of this tension between wanting n a life of domesticity and peace vs passion and chaos, and in the end the record comes down on the side of choosing to "dance myself to death" rather than give up art.

Don't know if they'd be your thing musically, but just an interesting connection I thought you might enjoy