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Mar. 1st, 2022 09:19 pmi'm realizing tonight i approach 'erotic art' very differently than i did 'fanservice', in the past.
fanservice i'll define as like ... whole mantiddy-out art? drawin' the character like they know they're being perved on and basically have no shame with it, with like, smirks, state of undress, pose, yadda yadda. very oftenbasically always unless the character is a manslut to begin with it's outright OOC levels of acknowledgement. (I'm referring to men mostly here because that's what i drew in the past, and i wonder if this divide is also more common in AFAB artists for subtler reasons of having to work around Society Being Weird About Het Norms?)
wheras erotic art to me is the focus on two characters fucking, or the characters in a sexual situation (masturbating, posing with kink gear, whatever) -- but the picture's clearly more about them and the story and the context there than it is the viewer's, errr, immediate perving-on gratification.
in a very weird way, erotic art feels less sexual than fanservice to me?
or put a different way, it's much easier for me to rationalize away kink art as some kind of abstract thought experiment, wheras fanservice ... not so much.
it's sort of a 'hmm' moment as to why i had like, zero shame about drawing fanservice back in highschool but sort of cold turkey dropped it in college and only started drawing erotic art about ahhh, five years ago, now? and only now, like literally tonight, after actively thinking about this, remotely feeling comfortable about saying to myself "hey let's draw some man-tiddy-out, hello is that a sword or you happy to see me (lol) fanservice like old times again"
like, why the hesitation now, as I'm older and supposedly more used to / better at erotic art?
i have theories, like me suddenly getting the feeling such ... blindly, i wanna say, joyful? blunt? obvious? self-titillating art was honest, almost too obviously honest and vulnerable. i think i sort of maybe mixed that with a phase of really disliking extreme OOC art (for some valid reasons, but... it has its time and place imo.)
idk shit's messy. gonna see if I can work this out with a few fanservice pics like old times. :v
fanservice i'll define as like ... whole mantiddy-out art? drawin' the character like they know they're being perved on and basically have no shame with it, with like, smirks, state of undress, pose, yadda yadda. very often
wheras erotic art to me is the focus on two characters fucking, or the characters in a sexual situation (masturbating, posing with kink gear, whatever) -- but the picture's clearly more about them and the story and the context there than it is the viewer's, errr, immediate perving-on gratification.
in a very weird way, erotic art feels less sexual than fanservice to me?
or put a different way, it's much easier for me to rationalize away kink art as some kind of abstract thought experiment, wheras fanservice ... not so much.
it's sort of a 'hmm' moment as to why i had like, zero shame about drawing fanservice back in highschool but sort of cold turkey dropped it in college and only started drawing erotic art about ahhh, five years ago, now? and only now, like literally tonight, after actively thinking about this, remotely feeling comfortable about saying to myself "hey let's draw some man-tiddy-out, hello is that a sword or you happy to see me (lol) fanservice like old times again"
like, why the hesitation now, as I'm older and supposedly more used to / better at erotic art?
i have theories, like me suddenly getting the feeling such ... blindly, i wanna say, joyful? blunt? obvious? self-titillating art was honest, almost too obviously honest and vulnerable. i think i sort of maybe mixed that with a phase of really disliking extreme OOC art (for some valid reasons, but... it has its time and place imo.)
idk shit's messy. gonna see if I can work this out with a few fanservice pics like old times. :v
