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you know when you read hyper specific rules and go 'i wonder what the story was with that...'

proud to announce i'm the direct cause of two of those at work lol.
(both of them are pretty minor. one was 'no spray painting in the printer room' because i put together my halloween tie fighter costume in there on my scooter that involved a shit ton of sneaking back in overnight and letting the paint dry at night. and the other is 'no stickers on company equipment' because back in the day when $neuroticcheetahanarchistboss and team were there we'd put stickers on everyfuckingthing. including the ones that said 'trash' for epic irony points.)

god they're making me sound like a delinquent XD

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it's not *bad*, but i've been in an increasingly weird mood/vibe the last few years where i feel like i'm actively repelled by anything creative by a larger studio and up these days, and have just resigned myself to Making the shit i want to see for the rest of my life, and not expecting it in the wild elsewhere (unless if i dig into pre-2005 media).

(this may be part of the gamedev spree lately. at this point i'm genuinely more confident at actually making stuff i'd enjoy than i would be with other studios creating it.) 

like I had a moment where i saw chainsaw man fanart and went all '...........yeah what happened to that? that was all over my dash about six months ago'.  the way i watch/get into shows and fandom, i gotta .... be convinced into it, for at least a year. i gotta sniff the fandom contents like a red wine and see how it ages. and i didn't think i was picky, but while i liked original trigun, i watched the first episode of stampede and... yea no. nope. :v actively repelled by the body language in there lul. same thing with fire emblem engage.

there's specific story gimmicks, visual tropes, and vibe-y things more popular now that i could comment on that are strong repellants, but i feel like that'd be missing the forest for the trees, and would be bitching for the sake of it.

trying to think the last studio creative work i was actively into for a while (ie making fanart for WHILE the fandom was still red hot) .......... mass effect 3? oh! detroit: become human, that was probably my last Fandom. the slash fanart/fic for that fandom was sublime as hell.  (kotor2 doesn't count since chronologically that was released before. and imo 3Houses doesn't count either since it was more my metaphorical balls being eaten by hubert for all of 6 months, and then abruptly dropped like a hot potato. i was also in a decently bad brain depression episode right around the time 3Houses released, so.)

i feel like i've seen a lot of creators slightly older than me get into this kind of mood in their mid 30's and now i'm wondering if that's just a natural age progression thing. :v  lua's post on Ao3's founders and their culture also kinda sparked this.

/grumpy lady yell at cloud etc.