july nothings ~
Jul. 22nd, 2023 04:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kradeelav* art-task wise, i just, literally of this morning, sent out the rest of BOX OF DOOM aka the zine from june (more are still available tho!), so it's nice to see that one wrapped up. aside from two informal comms, right now i have a clear goal of finishing KILLING EDGE and WHAT GREATER SIN for the rest of the year. it clicked recently about the visual language I want with each of them; they're both different enough that i don't think i'll be bored, and i can always flip-flop between each if i feel like i'm starting to peter out on one. WGS is marginally more completed and will likely be released first, though. don't want to plan too much further out since I'm starting to feel the endurance wavering on those two, but i really want to complete two 50 page doujins so i can at least say my endurance can meet that.
* kind of decided to do a tarot spread every quarter of a year because my private hand-written journals are also settling into a nice once-a-quarter-finished-journal routine, and wouldn't it be nice to open a clean journal with a clean spread too? alas, the deck message (ferenc pinter set, my favorite) was simultaneously very clear, and very confusing lol. "you're going through stagnancy rn ... and u need more rest and meditation" ??? aries moon wants to FIGHT THINGS not rest lol.
that said it's ... odd, but true. ever since september of last year i've been somewhat deliberate about Taking a Break, since all the surgeries last year were hard emotionally and physically. but it's coming up on one year and I'm starting to feel somewhat restless again. either wanting a change of scenery with the job or living space or something. but i have a suspicion that some elderly family relatives are going to pass away soon which is going to put in motion a loooot of [irl changes and estate crap to organize] so there's a part of me that's also 'wait until that happens then ur going to have allll the change you want and then some". hm!
(on the other other hand, i'm going into the physical office next week to meet everyone for the first time in a year plus also, ironically, visiting one set of grandparents for three weeks so i have a sneaky feeling this irritable restlessness will be settled by that.)
* i've downloading a "lot" of art on my hard drive/in hydrus lately, too. i'm always downloading beautiful works, but it's to the point where several evenings this past week have been saving, saving, saving. going through favorite artist's twitters one last time. discovering a cool few new ones (look at these gorgeous pretty boys, blood/bdsm warning). taking pictures of my art-books for cool interior spreads. downloading yet more animators books (and actually going through them). my art's been improving at a nutty pace recently but i feel it starting to slow down ever so slightly which is making me itchy. also grr!
* (FEH gacha bs) extremely minor but i may or may not be getting a literal gold throne (top 1k players in a certian PVP mode) with my meme defense team of just zihark this week. lmao. lol. i was always a fan of 'timeless trickster strategies that ignore the meta' but i never expected an outdated unit x4 to crush meta whale teams :D :D a gold throne was the last big FEH achievement that i though was an impossibility but who knows.
* kind of decided to do a tarot spread every quarter of a year because my private hand-written journals are also settling into a nice once-a-quarter-finished-journal routine, and wouldn't it be nice to open a clean journal with a clean spread too? alas, the deck message (ferenc pinter set, my favorite) was simultaneously very clear, and very confusing lol. "you're going through stagnancy rn ... and u need more rest and meditation" ??? aries moon wants to FIGHT THINGS not rest lol.
that said it's ... odd, but true. ever since september of last year i've been somewhat deliberate about Taking a Break, since all the surgeries last year were hard emotionally and physically. but it's coming up on one year and I'm starting to feel somewhat restless again. either wanting a change of scenery with the job or living space or something. but i have a suspicion that some elderly family relatives are going to pass away soon which is going to put in motion a loooot of [irl changes and estate crap to organize] so there's a part of me that's also 'wait until that happens then ur going to have allll the change you want and then some". hm!
(on the other other hand, i'm going into the physical office next week to meet everyone for the first time in a year plus also, ironically, visiting one set of grandparents for three weeks so i have a sneaky feeling this irritable restlessness will be settled by that.)
* i've downloading a "lot" of art on my hard drive/in hydrus lately, too. i'm always downloading beautiful works, but it's to the point where several evenings this past week have been saving, saving, saving. going through favorite artist's twitters one last time. discovering a cool few new ones (look at these gorgeous pretty boys, blood/bdsm warning). taking pictures of my art-books for cool interior spreads. downloading yet more animators books (and actually going through them). my art's been improving at a nutty pace recently but i feel it starting to slow down ever so slightly which is making me itchy. also grr!
* (FEH gacha bs) extremely minor but i may or may not be getting a literal gold throne (top 1k players in a certian PVP mode) with my meme defense team of just zihark this week. lmao. lol. i was always a fan of 'timeless trickster strategies that ignore the meta' but i never expected an outdated unit x4 to crush meta whale teams :D :D a gold throne was the last big FEH achievement that i though was an impossibility but who knows.
