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Mar. 14th, 2026 01:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kradeelavhaving so many anniversaries this year and so many art projects coming out this month is making me idly wonder what the hell my reputation is online with this handle, lol...
especially tricky to guess at because - attempting to look at myself from how i act online - the one "constant" is refusing to be put in a box, ha.
specifically in art circles there's been a growing physical separation in terms of the more mainstream & palatable versus the seedier, sharper, "guilty pleasure" (crack, selfship, 4chan shitpost humor, whatever) and outright kinky works; maybe i was young enough on dA i didn't see it then but from what i remember it was all mashed up in the same place there. regardless if it's original works or fanwork circles, doesn't matter, it's a pretty sharp divide now, and i do get the vague sense of having one foot in both (mainstream reputation probably borrowed from my iron crown days, and generally more tame fanwork posts).
reputation here being in types of artwork, actions, and general "vibe". i def flip flop inconsistently between said mainstream work and the occasional wiggy as hell "bomb"; part of it truly just depends on whatever i'm in the mood to finish that day, part of it is slightly intentional "rent lowering firing a gun" so i don't get too known for one Thing and be put back in a box.
i don't go actively looking for what people say; it's really none of my business (and they have the right to say whatever). what i do sometimes see is the kind of activity on posts that suggests they're being passed around on discord servers (totally cool). i know some folks dislike me (i'm sure i've earned some of it...), but also probably because being annoyingly loud for defending lolisho for so long even when it was more of a third rail controversial topic (and something i don't usually draw). def know i read as intimidating/reserved at neutral, lol, my ex mentioned it a few times.
it's funny to be a known entity, especially how i never intended this handle to be anything but an anonymous escape.
especially tricky to guess at because - attempting to look at myself from how i act online - the one "constant" is refusing to be put in a box, ha.
specifically in art circles there's been a growing physical separation in terms of the more mainstream & palatable versus the seedier, sharper, "guilty pleasure" (crack, selfship, 4chan shitpost humor, whatever) and outright kinky works; maybe i was young enough on dA i didn't see it then but from what i remember it was all mashed up in the same place there. regardless if it's original works or fanwork circles, doesn't matter, it's a pretty sharp divide now, and i do get the vague sense of having one foot in both (mainstream reputation probably borrowed from my iron crown days, and generally more tame fanwork posts).
reputation here being in types of artwork, actions, and general "vibe". i def flip flop inconsistently between said mainstream work and the occasional wiggy as hell "bomb"; part of it truly just depends on whatever i'm in the mood to finish that day, part of it is slightly intentional "rent lowering firing a gun" so i don't get too known for one Thing and be put back in a box.
i don't go actively looking for what people say; it's really none of my business (and they have the right to say whatever). what i do sometimes see is the kind of activity on posts that suggests they're being passed around on discord servers (totally cool). i know some folks dislike me (i'm sure i've earned some of it...), but also probably because being annoyingly loud for defending lolisho for so long even when it was more of a third rail controversial topic (and something i don't usually draw). def know i read as intimidating/reserved at neutral, lol, my ex mentioned it a few times.
it's funny to be a known entity, especially how i never intended this handle to be anything but an anonymous escape.
