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[kradeelav]

one of many things i love about making my site as a digital nest is i no longer give a single shit about self-censoring on socmed, and it's pretty obvious when I post the same nasty things (nsfw link) with zero hesitation versus all these tentative crops and self qualifiers before, lolol. 

'come at me bro'

what are they going to do? temporarily ban me? that'd be free promotion, baby.  :D

(for real though, not worrying about the only "copy" of my works getting nuked or being tied with the consumption channels is a huge relief i never knew I needed. i also feel like there's a very interesting positive feedback cycle in that harassers tend to engage less with bravado, and by all means, will lean into that more.) 

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[lukadian]

Honestly *really* feeling you on the sort of... digital nesting, there's a layer of safety there, of like, inaccessibility. I find myself in a way feeling bolder. I can make whatever and whose gonna stop me or be able to easily send me nasty messages anymore?

As has been stated by our mutual friends though, the biggest loss is of course the idea of community, interaction, but to that end I've striven to be more active on places like here on DW or Devart, much as I sour over their constant obnoxious changes. It's not yet unusable, and I've managed to reconnect with old friends there! And then there's the deeper, longer lasting sense of community building offline or on an individual basis. Who needs followers when you've got *friends*?

Whats always bugged me most about the "numbers game" of social media is... I've really never even *played* it. I've never tried for popularity, or views, not even when things like that felt important as a teen. Part of it has been general lack of esteem, the overwhelming part has been seeing no need for that kind of attention, it's overwhelming!

And yet, I still find myself compelled by the same anxieties of those who *do* play the numbers game. I feel afraid of call outs to this day even with how far I've retreated and what little I share on what sparse venues. I still feel anxious to post and create more, to have a steady stream of content be it writing or art, even when I'm in no condition to be creating so regularly be it due to health or the external pressures of work and the world being a little bit a lot on fire sapping my drive.

But, there's a bright side! Nesting. web development, returning to old haunts, downgrading and simplifying as much of my online activity as close to retro as possible has really helped to manage and truly opt out of the social media grind game.

So here's to nesting! Viva la freedom!