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[kradeelav]

Pushing the button tomorrow on doing a 6-mo cold hiatus on tumblr/twitter.

Will still be here on DW, posting art on my site logs, and discord for existing friends, but that's about it.

came very very close to saying "I'm out" on social media permanently (would've done it this morning had it not for been ... yeah) - but permanently is a bold word and I very much like the idea of a six month reset to see what I miss, what I don't miss, and the brain reset.

my actual followers have been nothing but kind, so I feel torn there, but have become increasingly sort of annoyed with myself that I feel less experimental ...? feeling like the style's merging into this current context-less slurry? and the weight of Eyeballs absolutely influences that.

basically keenly feeling the need to hermit for a bit, mm.

Comments

[tei]

Nice! I hope it is a good time for you and you figure out something that feels good to continue with after the six months are up.

[kradeelav]

<3 thank you ... it's honestly been enormously healing just after one weekend, can't imagine what the next year is like.

thank you!!

[draculard]

I've been there. Sort of a wave of creative depression tied to too much exposure to consumerist levels of fandom ime. A sort of mainstream smoothing of the brain/kinks. Definitely helps to take a hiatus. Glad you're sticking around on here though, I would be lowkey crushed if you announced you were deleting XD

[kradeelav]

"A sort of mainstream smoothing of the brain/kinks" - you know, it's so funny you also mentioned "smoothing" there because that's absolutely one of my biggest reasons I've been trying to articulate in my offline notebook; smoothing of like, creative styles, even if it's visual art style or like, flavor of kinks in this osmosis of slurry?

I was just on deviantart deleting the follow list and following a tiny fraction of the artists via RSS feeds elsewhere and it was alllll kinds of feelings to see how a percentage just went straight up AWOL and have perfect time-capsules of how vivid individual styles were, and then those who clearly leaned into the, mmm, commercialisim side of it?

sure has been one surreal day.

[draculard]

you know, it's so funny you also mentioned "smoothing" there because that's absolutely one of my biggest reasons I've been trying to articulate in my offline notebook; smoothing of like, creative styles, even if it's visual art style or like, flavor of kinks in this osmosis of slurry?

Yeah, exactly. That's how it feels. I see it with my writing ... bending to popular characterization, sanitizing kinks subconsciously, inserting tropes and headcanons that I don't organically agree with or care for, but might have been exposed to so frequently that I've truckled under.