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i missed being in tellius fandom a little more visibly but i didn't miss how many 'proship dni's' reblog my stuff without realizing who i am XD

god we had wank back in the day (late 00's) but at least none of this tomfoolery. there's a sadistic shitlord part of me that wants to mess with them a bit. i won't. but clearly i need to mix it up with some more depraved shit to keep the squirts off my lawn...

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"Of course [technical skills in art] matter. You need appropriate technical skills.That's why I'm saying good enough is good enough. I was explaining this during the break that, you know, I just want to make sure everybody gets a chance to see it.  You start out here [at the bottom] right? You struggle through learning, you get here and now you're good enough at - say what I've been talking about today. You're good enough. It doesn't mean there isn't somebody better than you, somebody on- on Instagram you admire, somebody in history that you love, somebody blah blah blah. That's irrelevant.

Good enough is good enough. It doesn't mean you're the best. The best has nothing to do with it. It's a red herring. As soon as you're good enough and good enough by the way, is pretty good - you want to diversify. So you're going to [branch out] from here and you go OK, character design, environmental design, narrative structures, composition, color theory, stylization, etc. What learning how to draw gets you is the chance to do all of that. Well, provided you have the wit to realize you're now good enough. You don't have to be the best, right?

But you do have to try to learn something new."

- Will Weston

meme: people i want to know better

poasted by queenlua on tumblr, ganking for here :3 consider yourself tagged if you can think up of answers to 3+ questions ~

last song: i have a deeply cursed way of listening to folders-as-music-albums on VLC so stereotypical of a linux user wrow, so it's a little difficult to actually see what was last. but it was probably a depeche mode song; either "policy of truth" or "everything counts".

favorite color: lime green is fun for how obnoxious it is :D i always smile when i see a car in that color. black for daily wear + furniture though.

last book: two-way between gente (vol1) for lighthearted old man harem manga shenanigans, and trickster makes this world (i am WORKING on it lol got 1/3 of it read this weekend).

last movie game: i don't think i've watched a move in ... 9 months? last one i clearly remember was satoshi kon's memories (super gorgeous & underrated baroque alien-esque animated horror). games-wise, just finished elden ring last night.

sweet/spicy/savory: a light savory ~ went to a semi-famous sushi place last night that's featured in multiple raps for early birthday shenanigans and ate my fill there. :)

last thing i searched for online: "paul felix art" because i'm re-watching will weston's composition lectures, and wanted to double check that what he was saying about the guy was actually correct lol

current obsession: hmm. officially emerging from my single-brain-cell fe14 ossan fever dream (especially after i finish this doujinshi project) and in that liminal space of waiting for the next obsession to hit. I don't mind, though - as fun as it is to be in something, i've been getting the feeling it's time to mix it up with something new. i need to chainsaw through my media to-read list.

looking forward to: next weekend for birthday relaxation and packages ~ tempted to take this friday off too. maybe i could use it as a drawing marathon day... i so desperately want to get this doujinshi done. :')

shit, or get off the pot

the neat thing about doing .... five?  pretty detailed ~10-15 page comic strips pushing my limits of artistic technical ability back to back is that i've gotten a good sense for when my brain starts getting cranky and throwing a temper tantrum about a potentially stalling art project.

and like debugging a computer - there's always a technical *reason* why my brain gets cranky about a project (once when you throw out very short term issues like shark week or being hangry over a meal). i'm not talking about personal or biological issues; i'm talking about when the brain as a trained pattern-recognition piece of squishy software instinctively notices there's big underlying issues about a project i've been papering up almost by accident.

for example - comics are fickle vibes-based creations where you have to maintain that story-sense of "it's got it" over an incredibly long time while you do the really detailed rendering; sexy comics even moreso since you're hoping to put the audience in an erotic mindspace as well. (it's common wisdom among western webcomics people that a very sparse style is ideal in order to not run into this issue as much or burn out). my current doujinshi comic is done in a different stylistic tradition where that's not really as relevant but i'm definitely getting that 'you're starting to get into the yellow zone of burning out on this which will eventually affect artistic quality, better wrap this shit up."

there's also lighting issues i'm having with the zihark dakimakura which i'm reluctant to throw out >_< but the painting's not getting any better with no real easy fix in sight and i'm going to have to, oh well.

in the end, even if it's rankling, this instinct's kept me from noodling over endlessly over a mediocre outcome and from wasting time. onwards and upwards.