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call me krad.
I'm an old web meatbag that's most known for drawing villains on my main handle and in general being the one usually yelling 'fuck authority' literally, conceptually, and knowingly. I made this DW as a container to separate 'actual self' from 'artist persona' cleanly and have strong feelings on the topic.

also into:
villains. monsters. cathartic art that hits your id like a jackhammer, fellow kinksters + history , mil-hist (psyops, science of interrogation, mercenaries, etc). long-standing interests that aren't manufactured for attention's sake. experiential-ly creative side of fandom with a side of the sordid. zinesters. ships with deliciously fucked up power dynamics, sakuga, hacker shit, catharsis from those who never quite felt human. villains, again.

may or may not roll around increasingly rare fandoms (Hellsing, SW:EU, FE 9/10/16).

other frequent post topics found on here...
various liveblogs of media usually older than 2005, corporate ladder-climbing shit, magpie-ing links from the more interesting corners of the internet, guns. catharsis as a concept. if you need content warnings for anything mentioned here you're probably not going to want to follow.

Anything else you need to know about me...
this journal is selectively public depending on topic / how long I've recognized you, and If we've interacted more than twice positively there's a high chance I'll add you to the general private list. you may have remembered me from tumblr days but I'm not likely to go back to social media at this point.

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ahaha, have done the exact same thing with the tags in the past, especially early on, it's gratifying to know i'm not the only one. :D

(totally feel you with the not-your-own-hobbies ... it's one of the huge ways dreamwidth feels so richly different than social media sites - much harder to get isolated in a verrrrry narrowly specific bubble; feel like you get to see the 'human' in people a lot more.)

and god, right with the sanitation of media? it's very hard to feel like there's villains out there that aren't a caricature or have all of their claws removed - imoe the Major (and his squad) in hellsing was so successful *as* a villain because he was such a charismatic evil motherfucker at the same time. pretty sure a good half of the anime in the 00's wouldn't be able to get made or not-canceled these days, honestly.

I really enjoy how open DW is to everything. There's hobbies I don't have time to pursue, or just am not interested in, but I'm enjoying hearing about them. I think it creates a better worldview -- I am annoyingly against getting in a social media echo chamber / bubble, because I WAS in one of them once upon a time, and it is very damaging to your hobbies, worldview, critical thinking skills and ... brain. lol. I like seeing the varieties of people around here.

True! I don't think Hellsing could ever be remade for a variety of reasons, but mostly... ppl would get pissed because there are Nazi characters who are faceted. Like the Major! He has charm! He has wit! He is also a nazi, unfortunately!
I remember Jojo Rabbit, I saw it when it came out and it had sympathetic nazis (like a gay ish one) and when people talked about it they HAD to yell that "First of all, I don't like nazis, I do not condone them, BUT i like X about Y character"... Like JFC people we know Nazis are bad, there's no need to virtue signal before you discuss a character. Like I like Schrodinger, does that make me a Nazi sympathizer? Woof.

I get kinda heated about that stuff admittedly. I'm anti-censorship like you, pro-leave-people-alone, so that kind of sanitation of media in an attempt to make it palatable grinds my gears. Thinking about it ... I can't think of any older anime that wouldn't get cancelled, actually...

You know, it's funny you mention about previously being in a social media echo chamber, and strongly resisting that vibe since then ... a lot of the queer folks who I hang with these days have a similar-but-not-the-same sort of vibe as far as coming from deeply religious backgrounds and being absolutely flabbergasted at the moral purity policing in younger (often queer!) circles these days. Really interesting to see how cleanly the generation gap divides right around ~30yr olds and such.

No worries about being heated, you're preachin' to the choir here. :D It's genuinely lovely to hear. Anti-censorship is kind of the one big issue I focus on these days (if only for limited energy but also being in a good position to be informed as a taboo art creator). GOD yes to the tendency to disclaimer the shit out of a villain being a "norm" these days. it's almost like there's an absolute incapability to start from the assumption that ethics =/= personal taste in fiction. love villains (ditto with the major and similar characters. even unironically callin' myself a villainfucker) - and yet it's just.. bah. it sucks the fun out of being in a fandom, ngl.

I used to be on Tumblr (I'm only on it now to collect images I like for references) and it was a damn witch hunt every day there, and even worse on Twitter. Someone apparently recently said Spongebob's victory screech is racist to Native Americans ... Sigh... They're going to cannibalize each other ad nauseum until theyre an ouroboros.

I have some characters I draw (you might have seen them on my page, I have most of my art under access only shit), one of which is unhealthily obsessed with the other and they smack each other around a lot and it's not a good relationship. That doesn't mean I support abusive relationships -- But on Twitter or Tumblr or WUTEVA that means I am an abuse sympathizer T_T Can't people just be bad sometimes?! Does everything have to be a paragon of virtue?

Haha. I'm obviously venting. I think things are too sanitized and in this puritanical shit we have lost a lot of grit and flavor in media. Grumble grumble! Anyways! I really look forward to your posts and any art you post up! I love the hellsing stuff you did, it really captures how slimy Alucard is haha