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Feb. 28th, 2025 08:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kradeelavlong navel gazing barf about the current strip
you know, i saw someone on bsky make a good point about the absolute malice that some artists have towards making older folks the sexual focus of creative work.
and it's true - i don't like talking about it because i infinitely prefer positive action (creating in this case) and more options instead of an endless circle of wankery (that often ends up stifling creative action inadvertently), but yeah, i've always seen that sort of abruptness in some people's styles - it's not until the last few years i've seen genuine momentum to the otherwise.
to me, there's almost a 1:1 overlap of the kinds of creatives that have that absolute Hatred towards drawing older folks sexually, similar to drawing anyone fat/disabled/anybody not fitting the "love interest" hollywood default body types. i'm not gonna call that malice outright fascistic but with my Familiarity With Various Prurient Interests (fashkinkcough), there's real meat of a thoughtline there historically of why those are clustered together.
but anyway it's been really, quietly satisfying making this strip and YRMR for that reason given i also find there to be striking overlap with gunter's experience and my own in regard to multiple levels of disability [waves hand at general YRMR themes that i've talked about]
the funny thing is, too, and this is shakier territory - but to me there's a difference of being depicted as a porn trope versus the sexual interest, even if it's kinky. unfortunately my physical body type is a very common porn sub-trope (that will go unmentioned) that i quite dislike. (lol i know, me, a kink artist, saying i "personally" don't like that, i see the inherent hypocrisy - i would personally argue there's Nuance to be made but this isn't the post to get into it, and frankly it's not the kind of thing i'm likely to write in full in public just because of the risk of being misinterpreted).
but going back - this is the area i feel like so many people have wildly different conflicting emotions and thoughts on; being depicted with love, depiction with (sexual) desire, versus being desired through a kink-focused id versus also -- some subjectively drawn boundary that hits the person's squicks in terms of objectification).
and you can't draw a boundary neatly separating one from the other. smarter people than us have tried and failed.
a lot of people think that "kink versus softer erotica" is the most reasonable way to draw that (legal) boundary of what's acceptable to depict when that's not the right answer either considering how many experiences that abruptly starves and deprives people of (-and frankly how infinite fetish is anyway. fetish isn't just "x rated explicitness"; it's so many sexually-adjacent mental headspaces within itself.)
but it is interesting threading the needle drawing a hentai (blatantly a type of artistic hard porn versus softer erotica), of that soft squishy area personally of loving and wildly kinky and (explicit) desire.
which circles back to my original thought -- that there really isn't much like this out there in terms of explicitness with this specific sexual focus. it's interesting, it's a challenge, it's been crunchy shit to mentally stew over all these nights of drawing it.
i'm glad it'll exist.
you know, i saw someone on bsky make a good point about the absolute malice that some artists have towards making older folks the sexual focus of creative work.
and it's true - i don't like talking about it because i infinitely prefer positive action (creating in this case) and more options instead of an endless circle of wankery (that often ends up stifling creative action inadvertently), but yeah, i've always seen that sort of abruptness in some people's styles - it's not until the last few years i've seen genuine momentum to the otherwise.
to me, there's almost a 1:1 overlap of the kinds of creatives that have that absolute Hatred towards drawing older folks sexually, similar to drawing anyone fat/disabled/anybody not fitting the "love interest" hollywood default body types. i'm not gonna call that malice outright fascistic but with my Familiarity With Various Prurient Interests (fashkinkcough), there's real meat of a thoughtline there historically of why those are clustered together.
but anyway it's been really, quietly satisfying making this strip and YRMR for that reason given i also find there to be striking overlap with gunter's experience and my own in regard to multiple levels of disability [waves hand at general YRMR themes that i've talked about]
the funny thing is, too, and this is shakier territory - but to me there's a difference of being depicted as a porn trope versus the sexual interest, even if it's kinky. unfortunately my physical body type is a very common porn sub-trope (that will go unmentioned) that i quite dislike. (lol i know, me, a kink artist, saying i "personally" don't like that, i see the inherent hypocrisy - i would personally argue there's Nuance to be made but this isn't the post to get into it, and frankly it's not the kind of thing i'm likely to write in full in public just because of the risk of being misinterpreted).
but going back - this is the area i feel like so many people have wildly different conflicting emotions and thoughts on; being depicted with love, depiction with (sexual) desire, versus being desired through a kink-focused id versus also -- some subjectively drawn boundary that hits the person's squicks in terms of objectification).
and you can't draw a boundary neatly separating one from the other. smarter people than us have tried and failed.
a lot of people think that "kink versus softer erotica" is the most reasonable way to draw that (legal) boundary of what's acceptable to depict when that's not the right answer either considering how many experiences that abruptly starves and deprives people of (-and frankly how infinite fetish is anyway. fetish isn't just "x rated explicitness"; it's so many sexually-adjacent mental headspaces within itself.)
but it is interesting threading the needle drawing a hentai (blatantly a type of artistic hard porn versus softer erotica), of that soft squishy area personally of loving and wildly kinky and (explicit) desire.
which circles back to my original thought -- that there really isn't much like this out there in terms of explicitness with this specific sexual focus. it's interesting, it's a challenge, it's been crunchy shit to mentally stew over all these nights of drawing it.
i'm glad it'll exist.
