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Mar. 11th, 2025 11:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kradeelavi don't want to do the thing where you .. up and grab a term that has potentially wider cultural/historical/etc contexts than what's really being gleamed from me, personally in this short-lived narrow experienced moment - but privately, dirt-work resonated as a term (that the trickster book uses) for creative/spiritual-adjacent work that has real use in exorcising [$something] either individually or culturally.
because i was talking with the Muse the other day and like - oftentimes i feel out of place both in dead dove nsfw/sfw art circles because my overall art/creative work can wildly swing to one rating or the other without warning and doesn't really fit into either fully. i don't want it to, either, it'd be constructing a false box when a lot of my energy is spent ripping up boxes that i feel are abstractly placed around me either unintentionally or semi-intentionally.
and he was asking how i felt afterwards, drawing different kinds of things -
and with dead dove specifically i've always (like for decades) had the mental image of me just vomiting up shit and immediately feeling relieved. frankly i could draw even tender loving nsfw (doesn't have to be quote unquote "nasty") and it's the same. it's freeing in the sense i always feel temporarily lighter after drawing nsfw/dead dove work - unburdened, unbound, unrestricted, like i can breathe again. dirt-work made me think of that mental image specifically. the necessity of unclean not-allowed work.
frankly it was a very recent paradigm shift for me realizing that it didn't always make other people the same way (and sometimes straight up the opposite). sometimes i need a break from the intensity though, which is when i'll casually draw a handful of sfw pieces - but then i start to feel suffocated if i spend too long away from dead dove/nsfw art. like the boxes start coming back, the fucking assumptions.
and there was a lot, a lot of words in the trickster book about dirt-work and creative artwork (in particular obscene artwork and how it's in some contexts has taken a place of a similar release valve for modern society in comparison to much older historical rituals).
personally would like to be able to draw sfw with a little more nuance and strangely a similar passionate (freeing) intensity but for life - that it deserves, we talked about that too. seeing the beautiful mundanity of life through different eyes, while still also having that drive to sit down and show it to others, versus just passively enjoying it. it's the drive that's the hard part to keep. we have some ideas of feeling that out a little more thoroughly.
but idk i just had Feelings about (modern?) dirt-work and creating and how so very necessary it is for some.
> see also: tangentially relevant things idk?
because i was talking with the Muse the other day and like - oftentimes i feel out of place both in dead dove nsfw/sfw art circles because my overall art/creative work can wildly swing to one rating or the other without warning and doesn't really fit into either fully. i don't want it to, either, it'd be constructing a false box when a lot of my energy is spent ripping up boxes that i feel are abstractly placed around me either unintentionally or semi-intentionally.
and he was asking how i felt afterwards, drawing different kinds of things -
and with dead dove specifically i've always (like for decades) had the mental image of me just vomiting up shit and immediately feeling relieved. frankly i could draw even tender loving nsfw (doesn't have to be quote unquote "nasty") and it's the same. it's freeing in the sense i always feel temporarily lighter after drawing nsfw/dead dove work - unburdened, unbound, unrestricted, like i can breathe again. dirt-work made me think of that mental image specifically. the necessity of unclean not-allowed work.
frankly it was a very recent paradigm shift for me realizing that it didn't always make other people the same way (and sometimes straight up the opposite). sometimes i need a break from the intensity though, which is when i'll casually draw a handful of sfw pieces - but then i start to feel suffocated if i spend too long away from dead dove/nsfw art. like the boxes start coming back, the fucking assumptions.
and there was a lot, a lot of words in the trickster book about dirt-work and creative artwork (in particular obscene artwork and how it's in some contexts has taken a place of a similar release valve for modern society in comparison to much older historical rituals).
personally would like to be able to draw sfw with a little more nuance and strangely a similar passionate (freeing) intensity but for life - that it deserves, we talked about that too. seeing the beautiful mundanity of life through different eyes, while still also having that drive to sit down and show it to others, versus just passively enjoying it. it's the drive that's the hard part to keep. we have some ideas of feeling that out a little more thoroughly.
but idk i just had Feelings about (modern?) dirt-work and creating and how so very necessary it is for some.
> see also: tangentially relevant things idk?
