2023 resolution time ~

[kradeelav]

long-time readers will know I picked up a tradition when this journal was back on tumblr (carrying over into here), to do resolutions at the end of every year. :)

a quick summary of last year's ...

• Move out, v2
• Redo the dayjob portfolio/resume
• be kind to yourself; it's okay to feel things again
• continue to be aggressive about self sustainment. keep offline connections, keep staying offline. inbox zero / journaling
• art: keep that capricorn project manager energy going. Keep saying "no" to favors unless if you really, really want to do the thing.

some additional ones I've completed, am proud of, and sort of swapped out with some of the above ...

• survive eye surgeries + additional almost-surgery
• get therapy for longstanding medical Brain Junk
• survive the first year of being a people-manager (and office-minion loving her job still)
• finished falke
• complete migration to linux / retire 13 year old laptop
• do my first paid talk / speaking opportunity

status report ... mixed, but not dissapointed given the absolute table-flip that life threw at me. :') cataracts for a very visual person with a lot of medical skeletons in my closet was not an easy thing to deal with for the first 8-9 months of the year, and I think I handled it in the most graceful way I could - ignoring wounded pride to get therapy, biting the bullet, recovering, surviving a different kind of medical scare in september, still holding down a job I like with excellent people, being relatively easy to live with all the while, etc. that alone would be "mission accomplished".

doing the twitter / tumblr hiatus was surprisingly easy with all of that personal drama going around, and after I finish marketing FALKE, it'll be a delight to go back to that quiet existence. one unexpected thing was I got astonishingly better about people-and-task-ing between my journal/to-do list, which had the interesting side effect of also reducing previous anxiety to a fraction of what it used to be. despite being a genuinely hard year emotionally and physically, I'm hands-down leaving this a much happier and self-improved person than where I started ... a good feeling.

this next year ...

• *move out v2, for real this time - I am getting privately cranky with my current living space in ways i've elaborated on some other f!locked posts, so this will definitely be a goal now that the recovery's done with. there are ... complications with this given the roommate can't be just anyone off the street, but I did it once before in the old apartment and I'll just have to trust Fate that it can be done again, my inclinations towards pessimistic apathy be damned.
• set up gaming emulation library, and start playing! :D - i need to relax a little, get back in my old groove of gaming on pre-2005 games ~ hoping that now with the move to linux + obtaining a joystick + controller, that this can happen in a fun way. both portals, star fox 64, super mario 64, SW:Starfighter I & II, Silent Hill, etc - are among the many, many games on the backlog.
• set up pi-hole - this sounds like SUCH a small thing but the whole family and I have been complaining about devices listening in to conversations that they shouldn't have access too. hoping that this will cut down on that.
• finish What Greater Sin (hellsing zine) - it's 50% done as-is and I'm still riding on that high of completing falke ... would love to knock out another decently large and saucy comic project, to start fleshing out the store.
• finish 2 other existing zines / art projects - trying to narrow down the list of things that I said I'd do / still want to do before opening up some new ones ~ in an abstract, I'm using these to grow the stamina again to do longer projects like iron crown again. not there yet, but here's hoping that things will start pushing in that direction ~
• start the reading list again now that my eyes are back - I MISS reading. I still need my close-up glasses (in the process of obtaining them), but am hoping this will keep me offline, and god knows the reading backlog is getting a wee bit scary. the good news is I managed to scrape together a crude reading list from old goodreads / openlibrary data, so eventually cleaning that up and filling it out will be easy.
• *keep journaling consistently for the 2nd year in a row - this has been such a boon for mental health in general that other than moving out, is the one thing that I 100% want to do even if nothing else happens.
• redo the dayjob portfolio / resume - what it says on the tin. shouldn't be too hard, just that I've done a lot of cool stuff since becoming a manager that it needs to be updated. :) 

Comments

[queenlua]

i'm going to pretend i'm the reason Star Fox 64 is on that list and preen immaculately in a corner, lol. one of us! one of us...!

i mean your OTHER GOALS SEEM COOL TOO OF COURSE, i'm just a bit fixated atm :P

[kradeelav]

IT IS LOL. or at least why it was bumped immediately to the top of the list among the other, ahem, games in the library of that era. x) good 64-era level design is so crunchy in ways that's hard to articulate, whether it be zeldas or that one, so it's fun to anticipate diving into another one of those worlds. :)

[queenlua]

I'M SO PLEASED lol. i think you'll dig it; i've been so impressed with how well it holds up, accommodates a variety of play-styles, has a really satisfying core game loop... good stuff

[jakechirak]

Looking forward to the Hellsing zine eheh... and the others! Also, to a better health!

I always wanted to get a win98 to play old games but idk how feasible it is...

[kradeelav]

Thank you for all of your kind words :D I think you'll like most of those projects, hehe~

If you look into your local historical computer group/society, they may be selling old computers :o alternatively, linux (an operating system similar to windows/mac) has gotten pretty advanced in the last few years where it can emulate most of those games.

[jakechirak]

Oh, i'll look into it! I'm in France, and I don't think computer groups are very popular but there's probably a way!